what is my problem!? i have no self control whatsoever!! GOD. and i gained back the weight i lost and i'm less than a month away from my friend's wedding. :(

girl, you gotta change.

Slip.. Ooops

Ok... I let myself slip after the wedding of my cousin... but I'm back! Those 2 lbs will be gone again! Gosh...

Yey to progress!

There seems to be a bit of difference don't you think? :) My waist is a bit more defined. I can do this!!

1 week and a half to go!

My cousin's wedding is in a week and a half and I am DETERMINED to get to 130lbs by then. I started the 30-day shred again because I really saw results from that in a week! I will stick to my no carbs diet until my cousin's wedding. I fit my bridesmaid gown last week and it was just right... well a bit tight and instead of having it adjusted to be looser, I said I'll just lose the weight. Was that crazy? But seriously, fitting into that dress and being able to breath is not a bad motivator.

Midweek Weigh In:
Weight: 134lbs
Waist: 32.75"
Hips: 37"
Butt: 38.75"
Arms: 10.25"
Thighs: 21.50"

4 more lbs to go!! I can do this!!

Edit: I realized that I lost 10lbs in 6 months. I know if I only exercise regularly, I can lose 10 lbs faster than that! And knowing that I was able to lose 10lbs at all, is kinda sweet. :)

Ayayayayay!

Ugh. Where is the self-discipline!? Maaaaaan, I'm so embarrassed that I can't even keep a pinky promise to myself.

I'm 17 days away from my cousin's wedding and I'm STILL at 135lbs. I am at least grateful that I didn't gain any weight over the holidays but I haven't lost a pound since September. My mom put me on the South Beach diet and I've been walking and doing yoga this past week. I'm kinda going crazy with this diet. I miss carbs very much. On the bright side, I've been eating more veggies than I ever have in my life!

But you know what, I think exercise is what will make me lose weight... not dieting. Coz honestly, I don't eat that much. And with this south beach diet, I haven't had carbs in a week and I haven't lost a pound.

I hope I lose some weight by my cousin's wedding! I'm so unhappy with the way I look in the mirror. I try really hard to see my reflection and still think I'm pretty coz beauty comes from within right? Maaaaan, I think I got issues! Can't wait for my walk later. Will walk farther today to get rid of all these nega vibes!

Midweek Weigh In

weight: 135lbs (still!!)

waist: 33"

hips: 38"

butt: 39.25"

Love Your Exercise

I lost a pound this week! I know its not much but its better than nothing. I was very good last week, I exercised everyday except Sunday and Friday. Most of the time I took dance classes. Dance is really my favorite form of exercise! I made sure also to give my all when I dance so by the end of it I was sweating like anything and my face was so red, I looked like a tomato. I think I did level 1 of the 30 day shred once. I'm not doing it everyday anymore but it's one of my exercise options. I even tried swimming once! That was tiring but the thing about swimming is I don't know if i'm doing it right and if I'm really burning calories. Last night, I downloaded 2 videos of Winsor Pilates - the 20-minute workout and the fat burning exercise. In the first video, the people make the exercise look so simple but I already know that the routine will be INTENSE. I'm trying that one out later! The second one is like a dance aero routine with some pilates mat work at the end which looks pretty good too.

Back when I just graduated from college, I was a bit of a gym rat. I was always taking classes there and doing weights. There was a time in my life that I really enjoyed exercising and I want to get that back. The key for me to lose weight is really exercise because as it is, I'm already eating better and less than before. I just really need to be more active. I think that I am slowly getting to the point that I enjoy exercising. I guess I just really had to find that form of exercise I enjoy. It took me awhile to find it! I tried doing these weights exercise routines that I collected from Women's Health but I could never stick to it. I found it boring and I didn't know if I was doing it right and I felt that I didn't sweat enough. I realized I need to be following someone while exercising so in comes the 30-day shred.

I'm 5lbs away from the 120s... 5 lbs!! That sounds easy enough right? I can do this!!!

Motivation

Can I please be this hot?? I'm going to the beach in 40 days and I want to be confident in my bikini. I have 40 days to lose more weight and find an awesome bikini. For now, the beach is my motivation! After that, the wedding of my cousin wherein I'll be a bridesmaid is my motivation. All her friends are skinny and sexy, I don't want to be the only chubby bridesmaid there!

It's a bit frustrating that when I weighed myself in last Wednesday, I was still 136lbs... My measurements were pretty much the same as well. I really have to become consistent and dedicated in exercising as often as I can. I need to lose weight. I want to be happy in my body and feel good in my clothes. Gosh, I still have so far to go.

WHAAAAT??

I took a peak at the weighing scale and I GAINED WEIGHT!! WTH??? Well, it was after I had breakfast but still.... :(( I thought this week would be better... Now I'm scared for tomorrow's official weigh in :(

oops.

I slipped pretty bad last week. Drank a lot during my friend's party last Saturday and I wasn't able to exercise as much... so I gained a pound. Boo. :( I still added it on my sidebar as a reminder that I need to work hard to get to my goal.

I'll be better this week. Just watch me.

PS- I'm cleaning out my closet for stuff to give my tita (aunt) so she can sell on her site for 2nd hand clothes and i'm getting depressed. I was so skinny before. Skirts that were loose on me before are tight now :( It can get really hard keeping up a happy disposition yet feeling fat at the same time. I wish I could fast forward to being sexy and easily fitting in to size 6 jeans. How I wish it was that easy. This isn't an easy journey at all... I have to do this.

Mid-Week Weigh In

I got on the scale this morning to a pleasant surprise... I lost weight! Yey!! :)

weight: 135lbs
waist: 33.25"
hips: 38" (apparently i've been measuring my butt, not my hips)
butt: 39.5"
chest: 38.75"
arms: 10.75"
thighs: 22.75"

I wasn't able to exercise over the weekend but that's because the boyfie and I went on a day tour that involved a lot of walking, so that's considered exercise too right?

I HAVE to keep this up!! 5 lbs to go before I reach the 120s!!!!!

I CAN DO THIS!

Day 3: 30 day shred

Day 3 done and done! I'm excited to get all sexy and healthy once the 30 days are up. Of course, I shouldn't stop exercising. I know I'm not going to be stick-thin skinny, besides, that's not what I want. I'm a curvy girl and always will be. I would love to be as sexy as Salma Hayek and Kim Kardashian. They're both petite, curvy girls just like me. I WILL BE THIS SEXY!!

Kim Kardashian (photo source: instyle.com)

Salma Hayek (photo source: instyle.com)

Day 2: 30 day shred

Day 2 was actually harder than the first... maybe it was coz my body was a bit sore. I still did the yoga video after the shred. I'm thinking of downloading more yoga videos so I can alternate when I get bored with one. I actually find yoga harder than the circuit. I keep forgetting all the breathing and stuff.

I'm going to allow myself to weigh in only once a week so must resist scale watching! I have to admit though, seeing that I lost 5 pounds from my first weigh in inspired me. I don't want to be fat anymore. I want to love how I look in my clothes and I'm excited to lose weight. Must keep this attitude up.

So far so good... I can do this!

Day 1: 30 day shred

So today I moved my lazy butt and started the 30 day shred. It wasn't as horrible as I was expecting. Don't get me wrong it is TOUGH but its definitely not impossible. I also kinda liked Jillian's encouragement of telling me that I'm going to have to work at getting those abs I want. She also mentions that she has had 400-pound people do jumping jacks so I can do it too.

Last night I downloaded Yoga Zone - Weight Loss for Beginners which I also ended up doing after the 30 minute killer circuit training. I've always been wanting to get in to yoga but I couldn't afford it so downloading a video and doing it at home should suffice for now. I like the combination of the circuit training and the yoga so I hope I can keep it up!

Hopefully I'll be beach ready for Boracay in October. I CAN DO THIS!

weight: 139 lbs

waist: 33.5in

hips: 40.25in

chest: 39in

I decided not to measure thighs and arms coz I don't think I'm measuring the same place hehe.

All About The Inches

After reading all these inspiring blogs of lovely ladies who have lost so much weight, I realized that my weight shouldn't be the only indication. Especially since sometimes even if you're losing your fat, you're gaining muscle (or something like that). So my goal is to become 36-26-34. Or somewhere along those measurements! Oh and I will be as sexy as that lady in the picture!

As of today, my measurements are:

chest - 39

waist - 34.25

hips - 41

right arm - 10.75

left arm - 10.75

right thigh - 22.75

left thigh - 22.75

This is it... for real!

And yet again, I make ANOTHER resolution that this time, I really WILL lose weight. Between you and me, this is my 2nd attempt at a blog to help me lose weight. But I realized, I need a support system. I tend to make excuses to myself and I hate it. I need to be more disciplined! I need to eat healthy and in moderation and more importantly, I need to exercise regularly. I don't usually overeat but I think there's still a possibility I lessen the fatty stuff.

Thanks to The Secret and all these other things I've been reading, I want to take a more positive approach to weight loss this time. I want this to be about healthy living. I actually found out a couple of months ago that I have PCOS and I really need to change my lifestyle. Eat healthy. Exercise... 2 goals that sound pretty simple!

I can do this. I WILL do this. That's my pinky promise.