what is my problem!? i have no self control whatsoever!! GOD. and i gained back the weight i lost and i'm less than a month away from my friend's wedding. :(

girl, you gotta change.

Slip.. Ooops

Ok... I let myself slip after the wedding of my cousin... but I'm back! Those 2 lbs will be gone again! Gosh...

Yey to progress!

There seems to be a bit of difference don't you think? :) My waist is a bit more defined. I can do this!!

1 week and a half to go!

My cousin's wedding is in a week and a half and I am DETERMINED to get to 130lbs by then. I started the 30-day shred again because I really saw results from that in a week! I will stick to my no carbs diet until my cousin's wedding. I fit my bridesmaid gown last week and it was just right... well a bit tight and instead of having it adjusted to be looser, I said I'll just lose the weight. Was that crazy? But seriously, fitting into that dress and being able to breath is not a bad motivator.

Midweek Weigh In:
Weight: 134lbs
Waist: 32.75"
Hips: 37"
Butt: 38.75"
Arms: 10.25"
Thighs: 21.50"

4 more lbs to go!! I can do this!!

Edit: I realized that I lost 10lbs in 6 months. I know if I only exercise regularly, I can lose 10 lbs faster than that! And knowing that I was able to lose 10lbs at all, is kinda sweet. :)

Ayayayayay!

Ugh. Where is the self-discipline!? Maaaaaan, I'm so embarrassed that I can't even keep a pinky promise to myself.

I'm 17 days away from my cousin's wedding and I'm STILL at 135lbs. I am at least grateful that I didn't gain any weight over the holidays but I haven't lost a pound since September. My mom put me on the South Beach diet and I've been walking and doing yoga this past week. I'm kinda going crazy with this diet. I miss carbs very much. On the bright side, I've been eating more veggies than I ever have in my life!

But you know what, I think exercise is what will make me lose weight... not dieting. Coz honestly, I don't eat that much. And with this south beach diet, I haven't had carbs in a week and I haven't lost a pound.

I hope I lose some weight by my cousin's wedding! I'm so unhappy with the way I look in the mirror. I try really hard to see my reflection and still think I'm pretty coz beauty comes from within right? Maaaaan, I think I got issues! Can't wait for my walk later. Will walk farther today to get rid of all these nega vibes!

Midweek Weigh In

weight: 135lbs (still!!)

waist: 33"

hips: 38"

butt: 39.25"

Love Your Exercise

I lost a pound this week! I know its not much but its better than nothing. I was very good last week, I exercised everyday except Sunday and Friday. Most of the time I took dance classes. Dance is really my favorite form of exercise! I made sure also to give my all when I dance so by the end of it I was sweating like anything and my face was so red, I looked like a tomato. I think I did level 1 of the 30 day shred once. I'm not doing it everyday anymore but it's one of my exercise options. I even tried swimming once! That was tiring but the thing about swimming is I don't know if i'm doing it right and if I'm really burning calories. Last night, I downloaded 2 videos of Winsor Pilates - the 20-minute workout and the fat burning exercise. In the first video, the people make the exercise look so simple but I already know that the routine will be INTENSE. I'm trying that one out later! The second one is like a dance aero routine with some pilates mat work at the end which looks pretty good too.

Back when I just graduated from college, I was a bit of a gym rat. I was always taking classes there and doing weights. There was a time in my life that I really enjoyed exercising and I want to get that back. The key for me to lose weight is really exercise because as it is, I'm already eating better and less than before. I just really need to be more active. I think that I am slowly getting to the point that I enjoy exercising. I guess I just really had to find that form of exercise I enjoy. It took me awhile to find it! I tried doing these weights exercise routines that I collected from Women's Health but I could never stick to it. I found it boring and I didn't know if I was doing it right and I felt that I didn't sweat enough. I realized I need to be following someone while exercising so in comes the 30-day shred.

I'm 5lbs away from the 120s... 5 lbs!! That sounds easy enough right? I can do this!!!

Motivation

Can I please be this hot?? I'm going to the beach in 40 days and I want to be confident in my bikini. I have 40 days to lose more weight and find an awesome bikini. For now, the beach is my motivation! After that, the wedding of my cousin wherein I'll be a bridesmaid is my motivation. All her friends are skinny and sexy, I don't want to be the only chubby bridesmaid there!

It's a bit frustrating that when I weighed myself in last Wednesday, I was still 136lbs... My measurements were pretty much the same as well. I really have to become consistent and dedicated in exercising as often as I can. I need to lose weight. I want to be happy in my body and feel good in my clothes. Gosh, I still have so far to go.